This is my diary!

22/10/2025

Heyy guess who's got burn out! It's this gal!

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21/10/2025

Dear Diary,

College is taking all the life away from me. I don't do anything else but study. Before, I used to have theather classes, sing, exercise, call my friends. Not now. Now it's just school. This year has been awful. I'm in my fourth year of Psychology, and now it's basically only group work, and my group SUCKS. Like, so bad. They leave all work for me, and then judge my every move. They want to complain about everything I do, but don't do the work themselves. They are SO negative, and I feel so tired and overworked.

The worst is, I'm starting to make mistakes. I always used to be impecable. In the four years of college I'd been through, I had never gotten not even one bad grade. I used to be great in exams, because my memory used to be great. Now, I have the same conversation over and over again because I just keep forgetting. I'm saying wrong things, I'm awkward, I'm forgetful and distracted. I hate myself and who I've become. Today I was studying and found I couldn't do simple math, I just couldn't get it right. I feel like my life is breaking down in front of me. I want to leave the group and never see these people again. My room is a mess, and the house is a mess, and I just can't do anything, I'm so tired and dumb. I hate it when they judge me for my mistakes, as if it's not their fucking fault for not doing shit and leaving all the work for me.

I hate myself, I hate my life, I want to kill everyone and die.